Slip Stream

I thought I was in control 
Until the day came when I broke down and cried 
I assumed that I was untouchable 
Having spent most of my life getting high

The world I created for myself seemed fine
With beautiful lush green fields and the bluest skies 
But I wasn't being completely honest with myself 
I just never thought to ask myself why

Though my mind was absent 
I never really wanted anything else
Until I had a brush with reality 
And realised I'd left my dreams upon the shelf 

When I think of those that have passed before
There are regrets of things I should have done
But with the pursuit of pleasure running through my veins 
I never thought I'd become a shadow round the sun

Everyone has pain of some sort in their lives
And there are those who have experienced worse for sure
The water I'd been drinking became contaminated 
But to me it still tasted pure

I allowed my thoughts to become dark
I never thought things could turn out that way
I became obsessed with trying to escape 
But against the odds I decided to stay

It's only now I've found the courage to look at myself 
They say that the camera never lies
The lines covering my pale greyish skin only tells half the story
I've died countless times with the tears still in my eyes

In the deep recesses of my mind I can hear the turning of the wheel
Frame by frame I  watch my life play over and over again
Since then a lot of water has passed under the bridge 
But at last I feel I’m reconnecting with family and friends